I usually write a blog entry when I discover something that just connects for me. Bingo. A truth that I suddenly know – a problem that untangles itself and emerges solutionary (new word?) whole, ripe and well formed. Something that helps. Something that clarifies. Something that heals. I love those truths. They are important. They are answers to the questions. The a-ha moments. Oh, I do love me some answers. Some wisdom. Some decisive course of action. Some powerful rightness.
But there is a tiny, fragile hint of beauty in the not knowing, too. I just left a meeting where two people I admire were really brave. Beautifully, inspiringly brave in the not yet knowing. They were honest and authentic and willing to share in the midst of not having it figured out yet.
That kind of courage isn’t celebrated enough.
We value certainty and being on the other side of a problem too much. The destination is palm trees and beaches. Cocktails and selfies. The journey is pot holes, flat tires and traffic. It is tedious, tiresome, ugly. It’s grumpy and impatient and loud. Are we there yet?
But so much of life is the getting there. There are many to whom this is not news, I know. But I’m me, and while I can enjoy a literal road trip, emotional, intellectual, relational, transitional, spiritual, life “journeys” seem best done quick and dirty. Fast and simple and limited. Fix it. Decide. Done deal.
Where we’re going matters, of course. But to a great extent, we allow the destinations to define us. And yet, who we are during the trip is, well, who we really are. Who we are when we’re bored, overheated or lost. When we’re behind schedule. Out of snacks. Achy from confined spaces. Wishing for different traveling companions. Unclear on the best route. Uncomfortable in the silence that magnifies the rattle. Distracted by hopes and dreams and regrets.
Who are we, then? Can we be kind and humble and patient and maybe even occasionally magnificent in moments along the way? In the uncertainty and not-yet-there-ness? Or only when we’ve arrived? I saw it today. And I want more of that.