Sometimes, I look up to the sky and wonder if all that I believe about who God is is true. Some days He feels far away. Some days, I think how much I operate from the foundation of my faith and how crazy it would be if none of it was true. Almost like a mental illness. Like if I lived my life believing I could fly if I wanted to. Or that I could see things that other people didn’t see. I am sure that atheists think this about we crazy Christians. If I wasn’t a Christian, I would definitely think the Christians were crazy. Well, actually there are plenty of people who call themselves Christians who are certifiably crazy.
But sometimes, God shows up in such undeniable ways, it makes me sure. Like totally 100% sure. Let me share two things with you.
Early this morning I got an email from a lifelong friend. A woman who I’ve known my entire life. She shared a recent email I wrote with people from her church. The email was an update about my situation and some general thoughts about how I am grateful and confident in God. She had gotten a response to the email from someone active in youth ministry. Apparently the topic of cancer had come up recently and she was struggling to talk to young teenagers about cancer through the lens of faith. My email really touched her heart and gave her a new place to start the conversation from. It was just what she needed to read and she wondered if she could share it.
That energizes me so much and makes me really excited for how God is using this terrible situation to encourage and comfort others.
That was a great way to start the day. But it gets even better.
Later this morning I saw a lovely woman at Cassidy’s soccer game who has a shaved head.
It seemed fairly clear to me that she probably was in cancer treatment. However, you don’t want to assume. And you also don’t want to invade someone’s privacy. But although I’ve seen her twice before, I could not shake the feeling that I should talk to her today. What a weird thing to do, but I knew I had to.
I walked up to her and I said “hi. Sorry if this is weird, but I have cancer. I’m starting to lose my hair and may have to shave it. I noticed that you are rocking that look really well so I thought I’d ask you about it.”
She beamed a gorgeous, friendly smile at me (whew!) and told me she had breast cancer. We started chatting.
After a few minutes she asked my name and said “I just read this blog post that reminds me of this…”
I told her that I have a blog. She asked me if I knew someone named Katy Ursta. (I just blogged about my friend, Katy.) I started laughing and said “I’m lemonscarlet.”
She got tears in her eyes and said “I have chills.” She told me that she had just had three different people send her a link to my blog and she finally read it last night. She said she was too tired to do it then, but that she had planned to message both me and Katy on Facebook because she was so inspired by it. She couldn’t believe that I just walked right up to her that morning.
I mean, what are the chances?! We both felt like it was from God. I know I was incredibly encouraged by this. I hope to continue to get to know her. As you pray for me, pray for Jennifer, too. She’s almost done with chemo and has four active kiddos to chase around the soccer fields.
God is good, my friends.