As I head into round 3 of chemo, I am kind of amazed. If you told me that one day I would have cancer, and the evening before a chemo treatment I’d be sitting calmly in front of my Christmas tree, listening to holiday tunes, savoring some homemade applesauce and feeling pretty content, I would have laughed. I mean, this is one of your worst nightmares, right? I have advanced stage, aggressive cancer. It’s no joke.
But a Scripture passage comes to mind. The one where Paul says he has learned the secret to being content in all circumstances. This guy was beaten within an inch of his life on multiple occasions and shipwrecked a few times. And the one in the Old Testament where the three men are thrown into the fire by the king – they didn’t know whether God would save them or not…but they trusted Him anyway. David writes of walking through the valley of the shadow of death but not being afraid.
What does this reveal? That spiritual maturity, or a deep connectedness with God allows us courage and contentedness in the face of unsettling, scary, upsetting circumstances. I’ve got a long way to go. But I’m beginning to see how it’s possible, by God’s grace.
Please pray for me. I need it. And you need it (your prayers for me will bless YOU. Connecting with God right now is the best way you can spend the next two minutes. Promise.) But know that I am confident in God. I am floored by His grace. By His mercy. He certainly likes to keep things interesting.
I’m going to do my part – let them put the poison in me and not be a baby about it. God is going to do His part – be right there with me no matter how sucky it gets. And you can do your part – pray for me, ditch those mom jeans and maybe send over some non-Gmo vegetarian lasagna or something.